| So what to make of this weekend?
Was it a joyous time?
Awkward Turtles?
I don't really know to be honest, it all hit so fast and so hard that part of me is still recovering. A relationship that starts with her beating me daily upside the head with books isn't supposed to turn into this love that I feel now. Hell, that I've felt for about 5 years (Sorry hun, but you may have been trying to deny it for a year while you beat me with books, but I was just trying to stay away -.- Wasn't until we started talking that I realized that beneath the books and the beating, you were teh awesome.).
I had a talk with my roomie about love. Girls and the sort, I never realized what I had there with her though, never until I lost her two years ago. Three days ago would've been our 4 year anniversary, and to be honest, I would have been amazingly happy to still have been with her on that day. I've never felt better in my life whenever I'm holding her. It's amazing and I don't understand it. I tried to forget, to move on, and so did she. But we didn't.
But it's complicated. She has a boyfriend, who isn't 400 miles away (Doesn't it always seem to be that way with me.). But if she's like me, then a day doesn't go by when I don't think about her, hell, almost an hour doesn't go by. I love that girl, and I don't see that ever going away.
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| It's amazing how sometimes, when everything seems lost and hope is but
a null point, it all comes flying back at you to make you suddenly
happy again.
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